Today is not a good day.
Having headache throughout the day. Maybe due to my anxiety or because I have been thinking too much? I don't know.
One part of my backbone started to feel pain too.
For the past few days, I had went to several places to feel, to see, to think etc This is because my life will change on this Friday when I got my confirmation.
I told myself I have to be strong to face all consequences because I am a man. You do, you bear.
Maybe life will be much more simple as a HIV+ person. I dont have to worry about girlfriend or wife. I can just focus on other areas such as career etc. HIV is not a death sentence. I need to take care of my health more and pills will be my best friend after this Friday.
Since 27th June, I have been doing some research on whether I will be HIV+. It seems like being negative has higher possibilities. Yellow mucus and sinus symptoms which I had earlier are not HIV early symptoms. Someone also told me that if you are able to touch your condom when you pulled out your penis from her, you are safe even though it was only 1/4 covered. If the condom is inside her and she needs to dig out, then I will be very risky because it shows that the condom is totally out when you are inside her. HIV ARS should last at least a week but my fever only lasted one day.
Seems like higher odds Im ok provided the condoms were not broken. I dont know.
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