On the 28th day of my high-risk exposure, the test result by SD Bioline Ab/Ag combo test via a finger prick device was negative.
However, I am doubt with the result. My running nose never heal, muscle ache on my back, constant sweating, feeling chill most of the time, numbness from neck to certain parts of my face persist, groin and armpit pain etc
Even after the result, I still have all these symptoms. The yellow mucus from my nasal discharge never improve. I should be belonging to those type who never get a positive result by the fourth week.
I will be going to test later again which is the 33 days since my exposure.
HIV is not a death sentence. It is a chronic disease that can be managed. However, you have to take care of your body well and who wont? I have to eat medicine everyday. I will not die immediately and I can live long, very long.
The correct thing now is get a confirmation so that I can move on and get treated as soon as possible.
Monday, 28 July 2014
Thursday, 24 July 2014
Going to Testing Site
As of today, the remaining symptoms include runny nose, something in my throat that is making me to cough and a swollen lymph node at the right hand side of my neck, about 1cm in diameter.
I think I'm am infected based on the symptoms because these are HIV ARS symptoms and they appeared within the period (2-4 weeks). Although a lot of people in forums said I will be negative, I am not optimistic.
What done has been done. No point thinking back. Thinking back could only make me sad and harder to move on.
I just want to get a confirmation so that I can proceed with the treatment, listen to advice and see what can be done to improve my life.
Wish me good luck. Keep you all updated.
I think I'm am infected based on the symptoms because these are HIV ARS symptoms and they appeared within the period (2-4 weeks). Although a lot of people in forums said I will be negative, I am not optimistic.
What done has been done. No point thinking back. Thinking back could only make me sad and harder to move on.
I just want to get a confirmation so that I can proceed with the treatment, listen to advice and see what can be done to improve my life.
Wish me good luck. Keep you all updated.
Wednesday, 23 July 2014
Test
Few more hours before the test.
Although I've prepare for the worse, I am not sure whether I can handle the shock. It is pointless to think about the mistake. Would I be so lucky to be infected? One shot one kill?
I'm suffering from post nasal drip. Hate the itchy throat. Keep making me cough. I just found out that coffee will worsen coughing because coffee is dehydrating.
I hate Satan. He has been hiding behind me and strike me when time is opportune. Dear God, please forgive me for listening to Satan. You have been providing everything to me but Satan always want to destroy everything.
Although I've prepare for the worse, I am not sure whether I can handle the shock. It is pointless to think about the mistake. Would I be so lucky to be infected? One shot one kill?
I'm suffering from post nasal drip. Hate the itchy throat. Keep making me cough. I just found out that coffee will worsen coughing because coffee is dehydrating.
I hate Satan. He has been hiding behind me and strike me when time is opportune. Dear God, please forgive me for listening to Satan. You have been providing everything to me but Satan always want to destroy everything.
Running Nose
Running nose ...
I realised the mucus is little yellowish but not a lot. No matter what, this is not a good sign isn't it? After one week, my running nose is back. It seems like my immune system has been compromised.
While touching my neck, I realised there is a part that is painful. It seems like a small bean. Is it a swollen lymph node? Swollen lymph node is a sign of HIVearly infection.
Tomorrow is the 28th day after my high risk exposure. I will be going for a test. If it is positive, I will seek help as soon as possible and definitely need time to adapt. I'm not going to give up my entire life. HIV is not a death sentence. It is a chronic disease.
Tuesday, 22 July 2014
A Normal Day
Went to gym in the afternoon followed by a short stroll in the evening.
Today is a normal day for me. Nothing special. Although it is a normal day, I feel blissful. Would days be normal to me after this Friday when I will go for my HIV test.
So far I am quite optimistic. I have plans if I am HIV positive.
Headache continues today.
Dear heavenly father, I have let you down for listening to Satan who has been hiding behind and strike me when I am off guard. Please forgive me father.
Monday, 21 July 2014
4th Week
Today is not a good day.
Having headache throughout the day. Maybe due to my anxiety or because I have been thinking too much? I don't know.
One part of my backbone started to feel pain too.
For the past few days, I had went to several places to feel, to see, to think etc This is because my life will change on this Friday when I got my confirmation.
I told myself I have to be strong to face all consequences because I am a man. You do, you bear.
Maybe life will be much more simple as a HIV+ person. I dont have to worry about girlfriend or wife. I can just focus on other areas such as career etc. HIV is not a death sentence. I need to take care of my health more and pills will be my best friend after this Friday.
Since 27th June, I have been doing some research on whether I will be HIV+. It seems like being negative has higher possibilities. Yellow mucus and sinus symptoms which I had earlier are not HIV early symptoms. Someone also told me that if you are able to touch your condom when you pulled out your penis from her, you are safe even though it was only 1/4 covered. If the condom is inside her and she needs to dig out, then I will be very risky because it shows that the condom is totally out when you are inside her. HIV ARS should last at least a week but my fever only lasted one day.
Seems like higher odds Im ok provided the condoms were not broken. I dont know.
Having headache throughout the day. Maybe due to my anxiety or because I have been thinking too much? I don't know.
One part of my backbone started to feel pain too.
For the past few days, I had went to several places to feel, to see, to think etc This is because my life will change on this Friday when I got my confirmation.
I told myself I have to be strong to face all consequences because I am a man. You do, you bear.
Maybe life will be much more simple as a HIV+ person. I dont have to worry about girlfriend or wife. I can just focus on other areas such as career etc. HIV is not a death sentence. I need to take care of my health more and pills will be my best friend after this Friday.
Since 27th June, I have been doing some research on whether I will be HIV+. It seems like being negative has higher possibilities. Yellow mucus and sinus symptoms which I had earlier are not HIV early symptoms. Someone also told me that if you are able to touch your condom when you pulled out your penis from her, you are safe even though it was only 1/4 covered. If the condom is inside her and she needs to dig out, then I will be very risky because it shows that the condom is totally out when you are inside her. HIV ARS should last at least a week but my fever only lasted one day.
Seems like higher odds Im ok provided the condoms were not broken. I dont know.
Friday, 18 July 2014
Last weekend
This is probably the last weekend that I think I am still possible to be HIV negative.
For the past few weeks, the word "HIV" has been appearing in my mind. Almost every minutes throughout the day. Incredible isn't it? Never keep thinking of something in such a manner.
Any symptoms today? Except some discomfort in my throat, nothing else. According to my research online, most people will develop some flu-like symptoms 2-4 weeks after infection but not everyone will have symptoms.
But it is definitely a good sign if there are no symptoms.
For the past few weeks, the word "HIV" has been appearing in my mind. Almost every minutes throughout the day. Incredible isn't it? Never keep thinking of something in such a manner.
Any symptoms today? Except some discomfort in my throat, nothing else. According to my research online, most people will develop some flu-like symptoms 2-4 weeks after infection but not everyone will have symptoms.
But it is definitely a good sign if there are no symptoms.
Thursday, 17 July 2014
Today is Friday
Woke up at 9am today.
Exactly 7 days to my HIV test day. Feeling very normal today as there are no symptoms.
I posted a question on http://www.askdrtan.com/forum/view and Dr Tan replied. I have been wondering why HIV is still rising in Singapore although we have been very well educated since young what is safe sex. Apparently, people are still infected even with condom is used!
Sometimes I think I am infected because of the symptoms. Sometimes I think I am on the safe side. Maybe that's why I am having headache.
Only testing can tell you the truth!
Exactly 7 days to my HIV test day. Feeling very normal today as there are no symptoms.
I posted a question on http://www.askdrtan.com/forum/view and Dr Tan replied. I have been wondering why HIV is still rising in Singapore although we have been very well educated since young what is safe sex. Apparently, people are still infected even with condom is used!
Sometimes I think I am infected because of the symptoms. Sometimes I think I am on the safe side. Maybe that's why I am having headache.
Only testing can tell you the truth!
Introduction
Hi all,
I am a 34-year-old guy living in Singapore. Working as an engineer. Very likely, I am a HIV carrier.
Why very likely? This is because I had a high-risk exposure on 28th June 2014. Although condom was used, something happened during the process.
Twelve days later on 8th July, I developed a fever which subsided the next day. However, from 9th July until 14th July, my nose had been discharging a lot of yellow mucus (never experienced this before, not so much!) and coughing which was more like dry cough. I am not sure whether my coughing is due to the mucus coming down from my nose. All these symptoms disappeared after my doctor prescribed me anitbiotics and phlegm medicines.
Maybe due to anxiety, I am also having headache. It can be due to HIV ARS which usually appear soon (2 to 6 weeks) after a person is infected with HIV.
Next week will be the 4th week. I will be doing my HIV test to confirm the results. Wish me good luck.
I am a 34-year-old guy living in Singapore. Working as an engineer. Very likely, I am a HIV carrier.
Why very likely? This is because I had a high-risk exposure on 28th June 2014. Although condom was used, something happened during the process.
Twelve days later on 8th July, I developed a fever which subsided the next day. However, from 9th July until 14th July, my nose had been discharging a lot of yellow mucus (never experienced this before, not so much!) and coughing which was more like dry cough. I am not sure whether my coughing is due to the mucus coming down from my nose. All these symptoms disappeared after my doctor prescribed me anitbiotics and phlegm medicines.
Maybe due to anxiety, I am also having headache. It can be due to HIV ARS which usually appear soon (2 to 6 weeks) after a person is infected with HIV.
Next week will be the 4th week. I will be doing my HIV test to confirm the results. Wish me good luck.
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